Don’t worry !

 DW, a friend texted me when he was trying his best to encourage me to use technology. I thought now DW is another app, and when I just asked him what is DW, he replied Don’t worry! We were laughing and laughing enjoying the social distancing and texting each other...lol,ha ha ha. I am trying to have my hands in technology this is the choice I have made and it comes with a cost.

At the  same time,I am trying to understand the choices we have in every situation. The first cost is 100% liberty to the other person to be what is! Trying to let me down, create anxiety or do anything to provoke my irritability.I am trying to understand the behaviour pattern. Inspite of gaining an understanding it takes time and an open heart to accept it but once I have accepted it, there is a tremendous positive energy.

The second price is 50% choice to be or not to be what I am! At times I let people, situations, events and myself be what I am! Still at other times I like to question as to 'why so?' and 50% of my emotions hanging in pieces are now R.I.P (Resting In Peace) when I have logically concluded 'why so'!

I am in denial, I resist,I get tempted....part of evolving emotions!! Having a crush is as exciting as having an ice cream till the time you don’t let it crush you. I keep telling myself,DW,DW, don’t worry, don’t worry.The source is love and fear. I love you and I have the fear of losing you! 

But you are still my favourite dress and my most preferred pen to write with! Technology I try to ignore as much as I can till the time there is an app I need to download to support my work. 

At times, I deeply, deeply think of my intentions, while I am having conversations with people. Conversations are sexy, if you understand what I mean. Amen. The energy of motivating people cannot be described and neither did I try. There are situations where I make some hard choices. Let’s say ignoring someone is my way of saying that this is the boundary and nothing more. 

This usually lifts my spirit. Others time I tell myself ,DW....hmmm don’t  worry. 

Hard  but soft, Painful but peaceful is the choice to be what you want to be.

Pieces to peace.....After all, nothingness is also a bliss.