Bottoms Up!

Michael is once again on the verge of disturbing her fourth relationship.It is the  toxicity she says..Whose? 

 She has reached the “rock bottom”of her pain where it is beyond her to go through the same pain again.Her dilemma is why people walk away from her life. 

 When at times you are “talking” to someone honestly there comes a “point in the conversation”when you get the message that you need. This is what happened in the therapy session. 

My turning point was when he said to me that look,I have too many flaws, but I would like to say that if you ever get time and you are willing, just sit with yourself and ask yourself “What am I doing”?I had never expected anyone to say something like this to me said Michael in a heavy tone. 

“Self-reflection”made her understand that she expects him to talk to her when he is in the middle of a meeting. Blaming him to be careless has been the second nature. I love to spell boundaries about when he can call me, because I am disciplined,but I don’t follow any boundaries for myself. Well, self work ,when we reflect on our emotions,thoughts,choice of words, can surprise us about ourselves. 

Where do you think you are coming from ? I asked her looking straight into her eyes. 

Ma’am, I have been in a very loving family and now living away from my family I am somewhere where trying to find my father in him .The romance in the relationship is turning into another toxic relationship. 

Why same patterns, same behaviour, insecurities, Michael, I asked. 

Unrealistic expectations, lack of boundaries is the source of the pain that I have created for myself. I know it Ma’am, yet my ego stops me from being realistic. I don’t want to admit in front of him. She burst into an infectious laughter. 

While she seeks therapy for understanding her patterns, she is also aware of her “subtle ego” ruling her mind. 

Where do our blames, insecurity, ego come from and where does it lead to ? I would like to believe we all know this . The only thing we need to do is take responsibility of our own thoughts. Blames ,bitterness ,resentment etc does not survive then . Are we willing ? 

There is at times lots of joy in unguarded way of living. Why think what others will think? Mental connections are rare. 

Well this story is a beautiful journey. Michael and her  partner say that they are crazy about each other and in fact they both are the reasons for each other for looking at their mobiles in the middle of the meeting.Just this !